Deep Thoughts.

Sometimes being the only child and yet not close to the family, can be really lonesome. Smh. 

Okay

I’ve decided to take time off tumblr, or like my whole laptop. I have things to get done, and being on this laptop will just make me push it away. So lets see how long I can keep away from this and actually get my things done. Till next time :D

Talking to a customer through the phone.

Life Style;

I need to change the way I live. I have to do things for myself now. I can’t be taking baby steps any more, nor have anyone holding my hand. I need to learn to be the adult I already am.

Patients

Sooo, I think it’s time to slow things down and be patient. Rushing can sometimes only make things go wrong.

So many things bottled up inside, broke me down in tears.

The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present

I’ve met someone back in the late 2007 - 2009 and from the first day I met her, I can still clearly remember.

Yeah I was always quiet, since I was new to the place and didn’t really have friends. So I was just there by myself, thinking why was I even there. Why I had to move, why did I have to leave my old friends? As I was just being alone, she walked up and sat down right next to me and introduced herself and her friend that was with her. We were both still pretty young at the time. She asked me why I was always looking sad, and quiet. I didn’t really know how to reply to her but I just said, “Oh no, it’s nothing. Just got a lot on my mind.” Then her friend that was accompanying her left us alone. Then she started asking me a lot of other questions. She was really being friendly. And there were some questions that made me blush and couldn’t really answer them because I didn’t know how too. Then after being interview by a thousand questions from her we had to call it a day. I went home, and I found a friend request on myspace. It was her. I accepted and we talked and talked for hours. I got to see her once a week and sometimes even twice if we planned something. We met up at one of the malls there with a couple of our friends. We’d always go missing, and our friends will always tease us for liking each other. We’d always deny it but I know we really had something.

My friends and I together with her friends planned to go ice skating. I kinda didn’t want to try because thinking it isn’t like rollerblades I would fall flat on my face. She kept bugging me to go in the rink with her and I gave in and went. I wasn’t so good at it, and I still didn’t get the hang of it but I managed. We went around a couple times and before it we were all done, I stumbled and fell. She laughed and tried to help me up. As she was doing so, we both fell again. We were sitting on the cold icey floor and laughed at each other. We then go to our feet and then on our way back to the side I almost fell again but she caught me, and that was the first time we hugged. 

We also met up at a friends house for a movie/video game day. We all played rock band and other games on the wii. And man, she’s a gamer. There was this one game we were playing and it had to do something with color, and at the time my color coordination wasn’t on point. I didn’t know the colors between black and purple, blue and green. She would make fun of me because I kept losing in the game, then after she would give me a hug. My friend ordered pizza and got a movie from the video store. While we were watching the movie, she moved over next to me putting her head on my shoulder and hand across my chest to cuddle. We were like a girlfriend-boyfriend but when the movie was over and the lights turned on, we were just like best friends.

After time went by I got stupid. Since high school was still the thing back then, I started to hook up with a lot of different girls from my school behind her back. Taking them out to dinner and a movie. She never found out, but I think she had a feeling. I never mentioned the things I do, and she started thinking. Then we had the biggest argument like we a couple that’s been together ever since. We stopped talking to each other after that.

I started to do my own thing and she started to do hers. We would pass by act like we don’t even know each other. Not even a hello or a smile.

Then when I saved up enough money to go visit the place where I grew up, I called her up and told her that I was leaving. I told her it was for good even if it wasn’t, just so I can hear her voice again. She then planned to go six flags. I agreed to go just so we can be together to make up for the time we’ve ignored each other. At first, I didn’t want to ride anything because those roller coaster rides weren’t compared to the ones back where I grew up. So we just walked around for a while. she then gave me an ankle bracelet and said to wear it. She had hers on her left, so I put mine on my right. We sang along with songs that were playing, and ate cotton candy. She loved to ride the rides and it was hard to keep her away from it. So then after the bugging and teasing we went on the rides. We saved the best for last. She wanted to ride the superman, but I wasn’t down to ride. She pushed me to the line, and the lines were empty. Not like the other rides where the lines are ridiculously long. I held my ground for another push that she was going to give me, but instead she grabbed my hand and pulled me to the top. As we got on the ride, I was pretty nervous. Gripping on the thing that holds you on the ride as I’m hanging. The ride started to move to the top of the slope. As it was slowly going up, she took my hand and held on to it. I looked at her and she smiled at me. That was the first time we ever held hands. After the ride, it was time to head home. It started raining. It was my last week before I went on vacation. She hugged me not wanting to let go, and I did the same. I looked at her, and we were both getting rained on. I tilted my head, and before I got to kiss her my friend came up around from the corner looking for me because our ride was leaving. We let each other go and I left with just a simple good bye.

What I think about Love:

Love is like stepping in quicksand. The longer you’re in it, the harder it will be to get out of it. 

Customers these days.

Thoughts

So many things going through my mind. It feels it’s gonna explode..

I hate it when…

I hate it when I’m driving pretty fast, and I need to sneeze. Because when I sneeze my eyes shuts close for a while and I don’t know if I’m gonna hit a car or not. It’s like dancing with the devil. Hahah

Oh and there’s a lot of sad shit currently on my dashboard. I hate that also. Gonna be on tumblr later. 

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Just got home from work and a job interview from Capricciosa. Hopefully I get accepted for the part time!! Keepin` them fingers crossed! 

Don’t cry over the past, it’s gone. Don’t stress about the future, it hasn’t arrived. Live in the present & make it beautiful.

(via myguiltylittlepleasurex)

Congratulations, I dislike you.

Goodnight.

I wonderr

How long it’ll take me to actually get up and clean my room. Lets start timing!